I Want to Run and Tell You the Thoughts That Are in My Head, But I Donât Think Youâd Believe a Single Word
Have you ever felt like you have so much to say, but no one to listen Have you ever wanted to share your deepest secrets, your wildest dreams, your craziest fantasies, but feared being judged, rejected, or misunderstood Have you ever wished you could find someone who would accept you for who you are, and not try to change you or fix you
If you answered yes to any of these questions, then you are not alone. Many people struggle with expressing themselves authentically and vulnerably, especially when it comes to their inner thoughts and feelings. They worry that others will think they are weird, crazy, or delusional. They doubt that anyone will care about what they have to say. They fear that they will lose their friends, family, or lovers if they reveal their true selves.
But hiding your thoughts and feelings is not healthy or helpful. It can lead to loneliness, depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. It can prevent you from forming meaningful connections and fulfilling relationships. It can stifle your creativity and potential. It can rob you of your joy and happiness.
That's why I want to run and tell you the thoughts that are in my head, but I don't think you'd believe a single word. I want to tell you how I see the world in colors and shapes, how I hear music in every sound, how I feel everything with every fiber of my being. I want to tell you how I dream of traveling to distant lands, meeting new people, and having amazing adventures. I want to tell you how I imagine us together, holding hands, kissing, cuddling, making love. I want to tell you how I love you more than anything else in the world.
But I don't think you'd believe me. I don't think you'd understand me. I don't think you'd appreciate me. I don't think you'd love me back.
So I keep my thoughts to myself. I smile and nod when you talk to me. I pretend to be interested in what you say. I act like everything is fine. But inside, I'm dying. Inside, I'm screaming. Inside, I'm longing.
Maybe one day, I'll find the courage to run and tell you the thoughts that are in my head. Maybe one day, you'll listen and believe me. Maybe one day, you'll feel the same way about me.
Or maybe not.
But until then, I'll keep dreaming.
Some people might say that I'm living in a fantasy world, that I'm wasting my time and energy on something that will never happen. They might say that I should be more realistic, more practical, more rational. They might say that I should focus on the present, not the future. They might say that I should find someone who is compatible with me, not someone who is out of my reach.
But I don't care what they say. I don't care what they think. I don't care what they do. They don't know me. They don't know you. They don't know us.
They don't know how much we have in common, how much we complement each other, how much we belong together. They don't know how we laugh at the same jokes, how we enjoy the same hobbies, how we share the same values. They don't know how we communicate without words, how we understand each other's moods, how we support each other's goals. They don't know how we make each other feel alive, how we make each other feel special, how we make each other feel loved.
They don't know anything.
But I do.
And that's why I want to run and tell you the thoughts that are in my head, but I don't think you'd believe a single word. aa16f39245